I just got off the phone with our pastor in Bonita Springs, Florida. He is kayaking around his neighborhood, his phone is about to die, there is no electricity, all the stores are closed, and he can’t find gas for his car. I can only imagine how overwhelmed he feels. While the storm has passed, and it could have been much worse, there are many who still need our help and prayers.
Thankfully, Brenda and I are safe and sound in New York with our family. We have had neighbors tell us that there is no visible damage to our house but we don’t know if there was any roof damage or if water got into our home. We sit glued to the TV watching report after report of loss and devastation. We pray for our friends, we wonder how long it will take for life to return to “normal”, and we wrestle with a low grade anxiety in the pit of our stomachs that won’t go away. We would appreciate your prayers.
I am going to keep today’s post short but wanted to share two things with you that hopefully will help you with whatever “hurricanes” you are experiencing. The first is a song Brenda and I have listened to over and over again called the Eye of the Storm by Ryan Stevenson. The first line says,
In the eye of the storm You remain in control
The second is an editorial written by Max Lucado, an author, pastor, and man I greatly respect. The three points he makes are very helpful no matter what storm we face. I hope it is as helpful for you as it was for us.
Can you remember a time when someone said to you, “Just one taste! I promise you’ll like it.” Slowly they dip a fork into their concoction, twirling the bite size morsel into the sauce with all the bits and pieces. As they raise the sample to your mouth, your nose is working like a basset hound trying to determine if you will like it or not. While no one else can hear your thoughts, you are very aware of the voices saying, “Don’t eat it!” or “One bite and you will throw up on your friend!” Wanting to be brave and not offend, you open your mouth and allow them to shove the food into your mouth. For a few seconds all thoughts and sounds cease. Slowly you you begin to chew and allow your taste buds to explore the spices and flavors of the “one taste.” Without even knowing it, a thought enters your mind, “Hey, this isn’t bad! In fact it is delicious!” Our friend was right, “Just one taste! I promise you’ll like it.”
Over the past several years we have promised many parents, “Just one weekend! We promise you will like it.” Sadly, many parents will listen to the voice in their heads that says, “You don’t deserve a weekend away” or “There are others who deserve it more than we do.” Very often we will hear moms and dads say, “We feel guilty taking time for ourselves.” Some will say, “I don’t think my child will like it if we go away for a weekend.” Money, lack of child care, and fear are other examples that we often hear. Some will never overcome these reasons and register for a weekend of respite. But for those who who are brave and willing to “taste” something new we often hear, “Hey, this isn’t bad! In fact it is wonderful.” All they had to do is try one taste.
This Friday we are hosting our fourth Taste of David’s Refuge event. It is one of our premier fund raising events. While its primary purpose is to allow us to raise funding so we can offer the gift of respite to our wonderful and amazing families, it is so much more. Our hope is that those who attend and support our mission will experience and taste what we offer all our families. Brenda and I want to say a huge thank you to every individual, family, and business that is supporting and/or coming to the event. We hope you will leave refreshed and renewed and even more motivated to continue supporting David’s Refuge so we can continue to offer a taste of respite to those who really need it.
I am looking forward to introducing Jeff and Jennifer Rubin, our honorary Co-chairs, to those who are coming to this Friday’s celebration. Jeff and Jennifer got a “Taste” of David’s Refuge as they watched the impact and stress of raising a child with special needs on one of their employees. You will not want to miss how this one taste not only changed this families life but also theirs.
One of the battles I struggled with as we cared for David was a sense of helplessness. I couldn’t stop the disease from progressing, I couldn’t make David’s pain go away, and I often felt I was failing as a father. A dad’s job is to protect their children from harm. Sadly there was nothing I could do to protect David from the claws of Batten Disease. I am grateful for my faith that would often remind me that while things feel and look like they are completely out of control, there is a God who is still in control. He was my refuge when I had no where else to turn.
“Oh my people, trust in him at all times. Pour out your heart to him, for God is our refuge.” Psalm 62:8
Wow, what a rough two days. In fact I would say they were the roughest we have had since you were diagnosed. Dr. Mink thinks he went too high with your Triliptal and boy did it have a huge impact on you. I don’t know if you remember, but you were in physical and emotional pain. You were angry and constantly upset. You didn’t know where you were. You kept saying, “I just want to go home,” or “I want to go to jail.” You didn’t know if you wanted to sit, lie down or walk. You didn’t like it when people touched you. It was horrible David. Two nights ago it took you almost two hours to settle down and go to sleep. Last night you slept well and today you seem much better. David, I was so afraid for you and what else is before us. I wanted to be brave, I didn’t want fear to overwhelm my faith in God, but it was too much. I hated seeing Daniel and the emotional pain he was experiencing. I hated knowing the struggle Brenda, your Momma, was experiencing, and there was nothing I could do about it. I was helpless.
I prayed for you. I asked God to turn his attention to you. I asked him to pour out his blessings on you. I asked him to take away your pain. And while I know God heard me, loves me, loved you, I still felt helpless. I am still struggling with just feeling sad. I can’t shake it. I’m supposed to preach next weekend and I am a little concerned about my emotional state.
I miss your laughter David. I miss your kidding around. I miss seeing your smile. I had a little peak into what it will be like in the future and I don’t like it. David I chose today to acknowledge God is in control. I claim and acknowledge that God is good and loving. Well buddy, it is a quiet Saturday morning. We have changed you a couple times already this morning. Dan Edsall is coming to hang out with you. I hope you have a good day. I love you buddy. Daddy
As you are sipping your coffee reading this blog Brenda and I are in Alajuelita, Costa Rica with our wonderful church, Turning Point Church on a short term mission trip. We are joining with a local church, Iglesia, Cristiana Alajuelita, to help build a home for a wonderful family. Karolina and her four children live in a rundown shack that has no floor. We will pour cement, build walls, run wires and lights to show her the extravagant love of God.
Many of my friends have asked me why we chose to go on this trip with all the other things we already have on our plate. Let me share a couple of them with you.
- Community: Brenda and I are still trying to get used to the fact that we are now “Floridians.” We realize the best way to accomplish this is to begin building friendships and relationships with a new community of people. A great way to do this is to join hands and serve others in need. Here is a picture of the team we are going with.
- Service: We believe one of the greatest ways to serve Christ is to serve others in his name. There is a story in the New Testament where Jesus is commending a group of people for serving him faithfully. He thanked them for feeding him and dressing him and giving him a cold glass of water when he was in need. They asked him when did we do these things for you? Look at what he says, “Whenever you did one of these things to someone overlooked or ignored, that was me—you did it to me.” (The Message) As we serve Karolina and her children we are serving Christ.
- Faith: Alajuelita is one of the poorest barrios in Costa Rica. Some of the neighborhoods are dangerous, water unsafe to drink, and of course there will be a significant language barrier. We know we are going to be stretched as we will have to trust in God to accomplish what at times seems to be the impossible. It is all too easy to let your faith grow old and stale. I am sure our time in Alajuelita will help freshen things up a bit.
- Focus: Serving others who are in greater need then yourself is one of the best ways to keep your focus on what really matters. I am sure there are some of you are growing weary of the ongoing saga of our moving, selling homes, building homes, and on and on it goes. I know I am! We are praying and hoping a week in Costa Rica will “reboot” our hearts and minds to keep focused on what it really important in life.
Please pray for our safety, for our effectiveness, and for Karolina and her family to see, feel, and experience the love of God!